Life + Train = Lifetrain?

Well life seems to have it's ups and downs in time. Lules and rushes. To this very second(about 1 minutes after I open this back up again) I don't know why I am writing here, since it seems like I have kind of given up on my blog. My wife kind of knows what I do everyday even if I do leave some of the more graphic details out of it. I continue to tease her everyday so that hasn't changed. Most of what I do on here was that. But it might be that right now I'm bored waiting for my proctor to get here, or it could be that I don't really explain much about my life. I might also be that a 3 month lapse was enough to make it so I could come back refreshed(ish). I'm almost done my 5th semester of medical school now. Currenly on my 5th rotation, 6th if you count my study time at home. Radiology is my new rotation which is quite a bit different than my last ones. In many ways it seems. Radiology is different than most other specialties in general. Sitting in dark offices looking at CT scans, MRIs, XR films, US, or Mammograms. However the differences don't just stop there. As a student in a busy office here, the doctor doesn't have time to stop and explain every little detail to me, show me exactly where he is looking and what he is looking for. In fact this particular doctor manages not only all the radiography of Astoria, but 2 other practices in Louisiana, and a New Orleans parish prison's radio graphs. So the hours are long, starting early and ending late. In addition I'll be coming in on the weekends with the doctor for anything that comes during those days. Instead of learning all the nuances of radiography, instead when interesting and different diagnosis come in I look them up, refresh myself on them and come up with a ddx, or try to at least. I study up on what would be the most advantageous model of radiography to ask for each clinical diagnosis. We do some interventional radiology as well such as barium swallows, epidural steroid injections, abscess drainage etc. Well those are what we've done so far, we might be doing some bone aspiration in a week or two as well. Anyway radiology is definitely off my list of what I might want to specialize in, although I hope that this month will be learnative for me. Even if I'm not interested in a specialty there is always learning for when I go to practice I can understand the science/art of medicine better than if I just focused on my individual practice with no outside understanding. Thanksgiving time is almost upon us, and we won't be going to the family trip this year. Well I guess Kristen could but somehow I don't see camping as her preferred choice of how to celebrate Thanksgiving. Especially with my family. Not that she hates us of course, she loves my family of course. But love comes in small doses (apparently she doesn't understand that tickling and light forms of physical torture equate to love {love you babe}). So what we'll do for Thanksgiving I don't know yet. I don't even think Kristen knows. Since she's pregnant I don't think that long term planning is really a forte of hers right now. She has become an expert at nap taking though. Although to be honest she is up when I get home these days. Although that could be because I am getting home 7-8 at night instead of 4-5 and so her 4 hour nap is done by the time I get home. I have also been told to make a better effort to leave anything marriage related out of this blog, and by marriage related anything she wouldn't want her family to know about especially with a 8 yo sister. So not marriage as in "marriage" but marriage as in MARRIAGE... hint hint nudge nudge sort of thing. I don't really know where the line is drawn since what I think is appropriate and what Kristen thinks is appropriate is obviously separated by a wide gulf. In fact I did have a funny story about what my wife watched the other night... but I cannot write it sadly. Anyway. So for Christmas I have Sarah and my brother-in-law Aaron who just got off his mission and is engaged to his soon-to-be wife in January I believe. I have been told to keep all presents PG or nicer(since when have I ever done anything else). Funny thing is that we had Aaron for last Christmas as well, not that it matters of course. Still can't believe I have to keep this blog PG just in case someone reads this(not that they will, but have to keep up appearences). As usual not much to go on, so I'll look around and figure out something they would enjoy having from the heart... usually weird things that no one ever knows about but are like... that's totally awesome afterwards. Getting kind of exhausted at my radiology rotation so I'm going to end this I guess. After 12 hours I don't know what to say anymore I lost my train of thought so rather than try to get it back. I'll gracefully exit

Definiton

So basically I'm at the point in my life that all weeks are starting to run together. I don't know what I did, or when I did it. This week, last week, it's all the same. Big things this week. I finally got a new phone. I needed something to get all the medical apps people are expecting me to bring to the hospital. Way too many books have been being carried around for such a little effect. Hopefully this phone situation will improve things tremendously. I got a Galaxy SIII not the cheapest phone but pretty cheap and affordable while being able to do the things I need for it to do. I participated in several minor surgeries this week as well. I participated in a punch biopsy of suspected melenoma in a lady's foot. I basically injected anesthetia in to her foot then used a screwdriver like device to cut a circle around it... cut out the connective tissue keeping it on, then sowed her back up afterwards. There were two lesions technically. Dr. Baxter did one lesion and I did the other. Mine might have bleed a bit more than his, but we got it together in the end. The next surgery was a cyst on a lady's back we extracted. that was pretty cool but nasty at the same time. I also have been seeing more and more patients by myself to help Dr. Baxter keep up with his schedule. Since his nurse practitioner retired a few weeks ago, he's been very busy. We get done ~20-25 visits a day. It's kind of exhausting in the end but fun. I see a lot of the members of the church in his office. For everyone that is reading this I do have a new email address... zachary.s.morrill@gmail.com. That is the email address linked to my phone. I didn't want to be getting a whole lot of spam on my phone when it should be mostly for important, non-gaming type of things. So I got it, you guys are blessed to be previe to this occasion so I am graciously inviting you to partake of it. Gratiuito We had the missionaries over last night and they told us to watch this movie called Unicorn City, by the makers of Napoleon Dynamite. It was so bad it was pretty good. For one watching. Never again. You guys have to see it. It's about LARPing etc. Embarrassing comment of the week was brought to you by Kristen Morrill. We were talking about something I don't remember what and she made some comment about the Morrill boys being horny... don't remember why she said that. But let's just say that out of everyone in this relationship here, someone is definitely more ... biased towards the intimiate relationships, than the other... and it isn't me. So anyway she said that and I looked at here at raised my eyebrows and was like," my family is horny?" She got a little shy then. I have made a new friend here in the area apparently. A pharmacist at the hospital is in EQ. We talk if we are in lunch together, which is about once a week. I am still playing LoL, and it turns out that my soon to be brother-in-law is one that plays that game as well. So we'll see how that goes. Still looking for a new hobby. It's a hard life. Now that we're out of school for the most part, not a lot of ppl getting on our old games together. I guess everyone has heard about the zimmerman case and the results. I am almost ready to get off facebook permenantly because people all seem to know exactly what is the truth and push it on others. I can't stand the hubris of people lately. Funny that the previous sentence just came from me. But it's true. The more I learn, the more I want to go off into the wilderness and watch civilization burn... I don't know that much else has happened. Oh yeah Kristen and I did go across the big scary bridge that heads into Washington and went to check out a sandcastle competition. It was pretty nice. there were a couple of "master" class teams out there. I don't know which one won since we left a bit before they were actually judged. But blame Kristen. She was reminder to take a jacket etc. and everything, but when the time came to actually go of course she forgets. She even refused to use my jacket for most of it till she got too cold to withstand it all. She finally caved in at the end and wanted it. Still it was a nice adventure before she leaves and abandons me for Texas.

Truckin

Perpetual state of tiredness and sleepiness has entered my life. Who ever thought that getting up at 7:30 would take up so much effort? Not I. Finished another class, dermatology. And yes it is a rash, no I don't know what the different kinds are, and yes it looks gross. That's about what I took away from this class. The most useless class I've ever gone to I think. Funny, they said that after GI, we'd be spending a lot of time board studying and prepping for boards, but no we were doing derm all the time, maybe it's different now. Who knows. Things are spinning up here. With CPEs(clinical boards) and the end of the school year coming soon, it's getting pretty hectic. Since I'm officially through all my system classes with the completion of derm yesterday(I got an 87 in the class) I don't know how to proceed really. Other than I want to lay down and sleep a few hours even though it's only 8:40 in the morning. Our next classes are emergency medicine, and pediatrics at the same time. Emergency medicine is pretty different, basically I've seen a bunch weird things, the normal broken bones, and unusual stuff such as a scalping, burn victims, bullet to the head, car accidents, all the problems and problem solving in emergency situations. I realize I don't really want to do anything like that. Too many times you miss something small and they die before you even know. ruptured spleen with trauma, intra-abdominal bleeding with chest palpitations, shock, and I don't really want to be responsible for losing a life over stuff like that. Even if you're not at fault that'd take the psyche out for a beating in the back room. So life is going to get hectic here pretty soon. Boards, prep for moving, moving, rotations, getting ready for the 4th year. And with all this, I just want to go and take a nap. Kristen's birthday is coming up here in about a week and me being prepared have already bought a present... I'm totally on top of things right now(ish). And no it's not lingerie, it's a real present. Can't get away with that anymore like in the first year of marriage. Conference was good. I listened to all 10 hours and still passed my final so God does still exist. Although on Saturday i was studying in between sessions and was so exhausted that when I went to priesthood session I basically was asleep before they dimmed the lights... Just sitting down and not studying was too much I think... I didn't sleep the whole way through, just the first talk or so. They always save the best speakers last so I was okay anyway. Anyway I should get back to class since it's going on right now. Just throwing this out there since some people don't live in the USofA and other don't answer their phones, like ever.

OMS II

Back from Utah and Texas with all the craziness that they both entail. Just a heads up Hubble is huge. Guess that the dewormer is working because in the last 2 weeks, it seems that he has double in size it seems like. As well as getting super frisky. He no longer sleeps in my lap it seems after he goes and runs around everywhere. Sam finally got married, although if you are reading this, you probably went to it since ... yeah, if you read this and you aren't related to me with a double X chromosome let me know, I think that would be interesting. Andi's wedding was long but fun, he had a good time and didn't do too badly, although his wife can be a bit ... how should I say this: My way or the highway attitude. Reminds me of someone ;) Sam actually went to riodizio's with Seth last friday night and they didn't even invite me, and I was 15 miles away. So so so so stupid. I have degraded Sam's wedding present from something nice to titanium sporks. First day of class and so far I think I'm about caught up! I know first day and I'm rolling. Hopefully I'll be able to keep up until the end, with a test this monday, yes I know so soon, I don't want to get behind. Currently studying the endocrine system starting with the hypothalamus and pituitary areas. They've actually mixed things up a bit here, with a lot of pre-recorded lectures and independent study time. They are encouraging us to lynch, email, or call the professors for help as well as use the online boards. So anyway back in Utah, I went and visited Matt and his house for a bit. They got into MTG(Magic the Gathering). It reminded me of the fun that you get when you're single, have hobbies etc etc etc. I want to have hobbies too but we're super poor and anyway I don't have anyone to do hobbies with at the moment. Somehow I think that Kristen isn't the most interested in modeling or cards or anything like that. So I will wait and watch for my time till I get to the point that I unleash the full fury of my intelligence... I mean something else but oh well. Well class is over for the moment so I'll sign off now Zac

Looking Back

One weekend away from completing the first year of medical school. Would I have done this if I had know beforehand the amount of time and how different, as well as what I would have to lose and change in my life. Probably but I wish that I had know this before I came here. The learning curve was steep indeed. I might even have gone on to do a masters in anesthesiology or maybe even a Ph.D before applying to medical school. Lived life for a few years before getting everything ripped away. On the other hand if I hadn't gotten married in December, probably never would have gotten married in school, because let's face it, I have no time. I might steal time from other things but there is never enough time to do everything. And let's face it there are no LDS girls up here either

He Lives!

Almost a month later, sicknesses, tests, classes, it's been an uphill road. Passed Neuro I found out late last night, and am I glad. Neurology is supposed to be the hardest class. As of now, we still have 2 more classes plus plenty of minor details to wrap up in ECM and other classes etc, but the worst is behind me. I'm actually just sitting here in behavior medicine and psych listening about physical and psychological dependence, and it is boring as heck... if that is a correct way of saying something. So about these last few tests I've had. About half the class has failed each one, as usual they lied to us saying after the first test things get easier, 2nd test was harder than the first(which I passed the 2nd one that is), and then the last test we just had Monday. The 3rd test was supposed to be a piece of cake and I got in there and was like ???? WHAT? So maybe I'm just getting better with educated test guessing. It was so bad, let's just say we went to the equivalent of Denny's up here and about half our group order alcohol, and it wasn't even 12 yet. I went home got in the shower and curled up in the fetal position for about 30 minutes. It was a wonderful test taking time for me. Another note you guys all know Sam is getting married, go Sam. Wonder what Jinaquinn is thinking??? Is she that desperate? Love you Sam. Soccer is going with the new season, and we're still sucking it up hard core. But it's fun to get out and play every week, I think it's worth the $45 to play since it seem impossible for ppl to just go out and play for free. On another note just about 5-6 weeks of school are left in my first semester of medical school. How crazy is that. Thinking back on all the things I know now, and all the things I've forgotten it's crazy. 10 months of getting information beat into my head, and some of it has stuck, some of it hasn't. Still getting over the throat virus, I'm not even coughing that much anymore, but definitely have a sore throat, although it might just be from coughing so much, and having to heal. I am getting better. Kristen on the other hand is depressed that she is still sick. She feels like that she's been sick for the past month and is never going to get better. On top of that there is no sun right now. No bright lights, and it's kind of chilly. The worst part of this new class is that I have to go to an AA/NA meeting alone and endure and go along with everything. Apparently small communities don't really enjoy 100+ students suddenly invading their substance abuse programs, but oh well. I came, I studied, I went to AA/NA meetings. Well that is about the whole of my life. OH one more thing girls, since I doubt any guys read this. If you're still into fruit smoothie making, buy a cranberry drink concentrate and put 1/4 to 1/3 into the smoothie. It makes everything so much nicer I've found out. Zac's helpful hint #284.1b Peace

I'm back

It's been basically a month since I wrote last, I know, not a good way to keep people informed about my life, but to my defense ... okay I don't have a defense. It's not good, I've been very busy with tests straight for a month followed by a spring break that wasn't very breaky (I only got to sleep in once) followed by being super sick, and still am it appears.

Anyway life continues. Mass Effect 3 came out and I haven't played it yet =( good thing my XBOX is still in Texas, I managed not to bring it up like I wanted to. So Kristen is glad about that; although I don't know how much longer I can keep it down there. But needless to say it shall be there till the end of my first year at least.

Upcoming activities are sparce since I don't really know what is going on yet. I know that there is a test in 2 weeks in Neuroscience again. I know I also have an OSCE encounter coming up here soon, I don't know what I am being tested on only that it could be a heart, lung, face, or neuro problem with the patient. Oh and abdomine as well.

Just got back from spring break in texas it went pretty well. We spent the week mostly with Kristen's family's house. It was so hot it was crazy. We watched the hunger games. I don't see it as a thought provoking movie about rebellion. I just basically watched a chick go around kicking butt and not dying. I got sick the last night we were in Texas so I didn't get to go to soccer last Saturday. I was puking too much. I got some of mother's promethazine, but I'm running low now that it's almost gone sadly.

Other big things. I think the best of them was the fact that a week ago in our soccer game I scored 4 goals in one half in our game. The bad news is that we had to forfeit because we lacked one girl that we needed to play. but still making 4 goals in one half was a good feeling.

Other than that I got to meet Kristen's oldest brother who got back from his mission on my birthday. We went to a beach and overall I think it was a productive week. Even if I didn't get to wake up... and getting sick

Well other than that, I'll try to be better at writing here but as always no promises

Zac

Drudgery

Bad Zac, I know not writing like like 2 weeks. Anyways it's been a crazy couple of weeks with this last class, OMM, and ECM all rolled into one. Passed another class happily, and this one means I'm actually getting better at guessing because it wasn't because I knew what the heck they were asking about half the time. It's kind of like 3 or 4th questions. The we expect you to know the basics and the under the basics, but out of everything let's make you think and hope you get a 3rd order question. Anyway next test is a week away so it's time to get cracking for that.

I don't have much information for you guys this round I'm sorry. I did pass Blood and Lymph. I am doing service at the high school. Other than that life is pretty rough for Kristen since I'm gone all the time and don't ever seem to do much with her. But maybe she doesn't hate me too much by the end of the school year/end of medical school.

Zac

End of an Era

Well, sorry about the wait, I know I was supposed to be doing this more often but this last week was panic stricken. I got sick this weekend, had to study for my IDIT final and hope to pass it so that I could pass the class. Sick and test don't mix well with fun down time.

Anyway, big things in the news. I started playing in an indoor soccer league, and we won our first match 3-2, but to be fair they were two easy balls that the keeper should have gotten. At the half we switched keepers and they started playing much better but luckily the keeper managed to save them all. There were a lot of people there for the first game, as they usually are. Probably will end up with about half the number by the end of the season. Since I was sick I wasn't up to my usual standard, but I don't think that I played poorly, just I did best on defense since I couldn't quite get the ball to go in. We also didn't pass very well that game so that could have been part of it too.

Sunday like I said to some of you, I got a calling in churhc. Kristen and I are primary co-teachers or whatever that is. I don't know what it means exactly but I sit with the kids and Kristen teaches. I don't know if this is the bishop trying to get up to have kids. but if it is, this is the wrong way to go about doing it.

I don't know if I mentioned it last time, but the 2nd midterm I basically bombed pretty hard core, which is sad because I thought that I knew the stuff pretty well. It's hard to go into a test feeling confident, and look at the first questions and go, "oh shoot". It didn't get better. So this week I study 7 days straight basically ignored my wife and studied hardcore. I thought I knew it down pat, and I went into the test today and was like holy cow. The easy guy, Dr. Mata, our pharm professor went all ape crazy and like on the test. Does anyone out there know all 14 Ceflasporins? No? Me neither, and he had them written out like we were supposed to know them. Luckily all that studied I scrapped by with another P in a class. I was getting pretty frustrated because my friend plays WoT all the time (yes I showed it to him) and he basically doesn't study, and always does well. But at least this time I beat him, on this test and the class overall. That's a relief, I hate going into tests thinking that I might not survive medical school if I don't pass this test.

It was my birthday today so that was an awesome birthday present to pass a class. I did end up playing SC2 for a bit today trying to unwind. I got a text/call from Dan saying we should go eat at Shari's tonight, kind of like a Denny's. Kristen finally came home after leaving her phone at the house so I didn't know where she was, and we had dinner paid for by the study group. That was my birthday, so it went well.

I have another game this weekend, Friday I believe, it should be fun, get some stress off and kick something. I'll try to have Kristen take pictures or something so I can get more color out to you guys. You guys as in Sarah, Sara, (Kristen lives here), and I don't know who else reads this if anyone does, so yeah!

Anyway tomorrow is starting Blood and Lymphatics so I'm off to bed

Goodies

Well this week Kristen and I did a budget for FHE! Yay for us to actually have a FHE and get through it. That's the good news, the bad news is we're dirty poor! Well we already knew that, but no goodies for Zac unless Kristen stays working/gets another job poor is the sad part. On average we get $50 a month for everything we need, besides the standard bills we have to pay. Curse you Mr. Credit Card. If someone out there want to receive about 3500 for about $2900 you just let me know =). It's sad that I'll be paying so much to the credit card company, but I guess the honeymoon was worth it. I might even get to pay off the credit card by the time I get out of medical school, maybe it seems like. Anyway, we're thinking about taking Kristen's car off of insurance and her just driving my car around to save money etc. So now we've entered into money saving mode all over the place. I guess it's about time I find out the hard way that money doesn't grow on trees. Curse you father for being there whenever I was in a bind... curse you. Otherwise things are going okay. I just need to pass this last test. Passing classes are what's important now, I don't try to do well in classes, it's too hard to do that. I've lost whatever self-respect I have, so I try to do my best and not fail. I'll wait till my kids are in college before I hit them with this type of talk. C's get degrees right?
We are doing a friends for scouting thing this Friday, our date night I guess. Since the church is so into scouting and say it's so important, we'll probably donate some money because it's something that the boys need, but we're definitely not in a position to do a whole lot for them. Callings were extended to us this last Sunday, and you all will find out about them this Sunday. Needless to say it's not exactly what I wanted but I think that might be why I got it. Either that or God is trying to nudge me in a direction in a not so subtle way. But the Bishop is a good guy, he is a convert and this is his first time as something like this. He just got called last semester actually, so his wife is still trying to adjust to everything.

I still want my cookies though Kristen. I can fast for a day or so we can get cookie materials. It's that important.

We did watch a movie last night, we rented Captain America from redbox. I decided since this weekend will be so hectic as another study weekend we might as well have a night to us now. Kristen is missing a couch something fierce. I guess you cannot really cuddle on the floor trying to watch a movie, but it's better than nothing

Anyways cookies ftw!

Life Update

I felt like I should write something again even though I don't really have a lot going on. There was this one thing with Kristen, but I'll get to that in a bit. Also as everyone here knows by now, we're be going down to Texas for Spring Break.

Anyway the big Kristen this of the week. I put a folder that has all my little games in it, and apparently wanted to be a little funny. I put layers of files in files all saying don't look or trust me don't go further etc. I even put a file in there that runs a unlimited loop of files. But anyway, the first one on the desktop says Kristen don't look. She found out about it and instead of trusting me she got super curious. I talked to her about it and said not to worry. She would just feel bad if she stole into it and looked. I asked her to just trust me. Needless to say that night she was restless as we tried to go to sleep. The next morning after I showered and went downstairs she was in our recliner and there she was crestfallen. First words out of her mouth were "...I looked" , and "I'm sorry" One more thing she'll never live down in the next 20 years! Where is the trust?!?(sarcastic remark)

Sarah's blender really does blend very well. We used it Sunday night actually. I've been trying to not study so much on Sunday and we had a pretty nice lazy Sunday. In the end we made milkshakes, not smoothies, since fruit is expensive. No wooden splinters no nothing, actually it was pretty amazing. 3 blades in a blender work wonders. Whowza!
We also started using the crock pot as well, twice in one week. It was pretty good too, we had a nice Sunday lunch/dinner. Cookies have stopped being made at our house, I think I ate too many too fast and she couldn't keep up so just gave up, I'm a monster... a cookie monster.
This weekend I also started on an indoor soccer team. We are all from the medical school basically, and I just started it seems to be a fun time. I scored a goal and did some good passing/setting some people up. That might have been because I came on after half-time, and they were all tired and I was fresh, but I would hope that it is because of my mad baller skillz

And a last note I'll look in my pictures and see if there is anything worth putting up. The first is Kristen's first attempt at bread, and the next one is the cookie jar... empty unfortunately

First Hurdle

Well baring all the scores changing and me doing worse than I have in the past I pasted the first hurdle of this semester of medical school. I got exactly average apparently 88 out of 108 questions. Somehow I have given up trying to excel in the classes. But I hope that I at least get average more or less. Ever since I've been married, it seems a whole lot more intense and bearing. I feel like I have to get better scores and do more since now it's not just myself I am going to school for, but rather Kristen is depending more on me. That sucks.
Got a call from Sarah today, or rather I called her twice and she finally picked up so I am stockpiling Sobe Adrenalins for my dad for father's day apparently.
Maybe I should start looking at cruise liner costs now that the liner crashed this last weekend. A horrible tragedy, but if it makes cruises more affordable maybe something good comes out of bad things.
I am at a lost of what to do today... I have all this time but none of the video games I currently have aren't too appealing, what to do, what to do. It would help if we have something at our house, but we don't, we have basically a bare house. I guess I'll put pictures up when I find a website to post pictures. I've gotten tired putting everything on facebook. Until then don't worry, I have the pictures of the house on my computer saved so just need time. I might do that when I get home in a few minutes.
Well it's a relief that the test is over, hope everything is good out there
ZAC

Back to School

For the few of you who so avidly looked forward to my infrequent writings, I must apologize since the new wife, cruise, and driving back up to Oregon has sapped away my time to do really anything.
Yesterday I was driving in the heart of northern California forests and trying not to fall asleep or hit a deer. The next day I am back in school wishing I had more time to sleep. I didn't sleep enough this vacation, dang schedule lol. I was waking up on the cruise at around 7-730 every day,which is totally unacceptable in my opinion. So I wish I had all the time in the world to write something nice to say,and explain everything to you all, or you 2-3. But I don't, I am actually writing in the middle of class so I can listen and not fall asleep in class(since they are here in Lebanon today). But I wish I could not pay so much attention and give you guys all the juice details about the last 3 weeks of my life, but you'll just have to actually get in touch with me in real life to hear about anything cool.
What else could I say to wet your whistle? I have no clue, although the cruise was amazing. If any one wants to go on a cruise with us, just let us know.
Till next time

Real Life after Marriage

Well, one day out of a lot in, and it has turned out to be nothing like I thought it was going to be. Although let's be honest, the sex is great. We basically spent the day just like everyone else. We got up, afterwards we went to her parent's house to open gifts and basically do nothing for the late morning early afternoon. After we took a short nap, we went to go play football in Alvin. Because that is exactly what Kristen wants to do on the day after we get married, I played flag football! After football we went to eat dinner with my family and look at a variety of different photos from Thanksgiving and our wedding/reception.
Things must be looking pretty grim for Kristen these days. Welcome to married life.

Final Push

Well we're almost done with 1/8 of my school and it's gone by so fast. The good and the bad. I have 3 hours of lecture left, 3 days of studying, and 1 boss of a final. Then I'll be free for the next 2 weeks! I'll be able to go to Texas, relax, marry the woman I love, and let's face it, I'll get to have sex! Now I know that's the naughty "s" word but hey it's 2 weeks before my marriage I can talk about that. But unfortunately that's not the topic of tonight's blog(although you guys who do read this should stay tuned, that one should be a good on!).

It's hard to imagine that 4 months have already come and gone. I've gone through so much material it's crazy what they force into your brain in medical school. What's even crazier is how much your brain can fit!

The funny thing is I know I only need a mid-high 50s to pass the test, so on one hand I am not worried about it, but on the other hand, I am worried because of all the MCBM tests, this one is the most biochemistry of all. I just want to get through medical in one piece, get a residency I can live with, finish up all my COMLEX tests with passing grades and have a nice life with Kristen. Is that too much to ask? I think not

One day, just need to keep trucking, praying, studying, and seducing Kristen and everything will turn out okay

To Do

Why is it you are either super busy or there is absolutely nothing to do? Can you not have a healthy medium world? Thanksgiving Break was supposed to be a nice time to relax and not do stuff. But in reality like every other break, to me at least, it is a super bored or super busy type of polarization. Maybe I just need to have a reality check or something, but that's how I feel a lot. It's like the summer break, at the end of the school year you're just dying to have nothing to do; and it lasts about 2 weeks tops before you're gorging your eyes out of boredom. Maybe it's just because Kristen was up here this weekend and suddenly the life of Zac turned into the life of Kristen and Zac, and Zac cannot be greedy and lazy like he always wants to be.

Going to have to get used to this I think. Because I don't see things getting any better for like... idk eternity =), got to learn to cope and adapt to the way people normally live I guess.

I've been spoiled my whole life. It's not fair...

Sorry Zac