Real Life after Marriage

Well, one day out of a lot in, and it has turned out to be nothing like I thought it was going to be. Although let's be honest, the sex is great. We basically spent the day just like everyone else. We got up, afterwards we went to her parent's house to open gifts and basically do nothing for the late morning early afternoon. After we took a short nap, we went to go play football in Alvin. Because that is exactly what Kristen wants to do on the day after we get married, I played flag football! After football we went to eat dinner with my family and look at a variety of different photos from Thanksgiving and our wedding/reception.
Things must be looking pretty grim for Kristen these days. Welcome to married life.

Home for the holidays.

Final Push

Well we're almost done with 1/8 of my school and it's gone by so fast. The good and the bad. I have 3 hours of lecture left, 3 days of studying, and 1 boss of a final. Then I'll be free for the next 2 weeks! I'll be able to go to Texas, relax, marry the woman I love, and let's face it, I'll get to have sex! Now I know that's the naughty "s" word but hey it's 2 weeks before my marriage I can talk about that. But unfortunately that's not the topic of tonight's blog(although you guys who do read this should stay tuned, that one should be a good on!).

It's hard to imagine that 4 months have already come and gone. I've gone through so much material it's crazy what they force into your brain in medical school. What's even crazier is how much your brain can fit!

The funny thing is I know I only need a mid-high 50s to pass the test, so on one hand I am not worried about it, but on the other hand, I am worried because of all the MCBM tests, this one is the most biochemistry of all. I just want to get through medical in one piece, get a residency I can live with, finish up all my COMLEX tests with passing grades and have a nice life with Kristen. Is that too much to ask? I think not

One day, just need to keep trucking, praying, studying, and seducing Kristen and everything will turn out okay

Randomness

As I sit here wasting time I was wondering if ppl read these or not, well besides Kristen because she's obsessed with me.

Anyway as the last of the weeks wind down for my first semester I am getting more and more fried lol. Of course, but at least it is only one class really left. My basic science class and that is going to end in just over a week. That feels good just saying that, in fact I think I said that out loud just now. 12.5% DONE!

Anywho

My life isn't up to much these days really, in fact I live at the school as usual, going home whenever I need to sleep. I will be glad to be closer to the school, I might be able to walk home from school when I live on Academy, sure save on gas, but then, my routine stop by McDonalds for a McChicken and fries will fall by the wayside... sad

Anyway as you can see I don't have much to say unless you want to hear about phosphorylase kinase or glycogen syntase... probably not

Ok

Paths

As I get ready for tomorrow I think about where my life has come from and what I am doing. I notice that lots of times I take everything for granted, and wonder where should I really be. As I go in front of a committee tomorrow to present my case I start to question why I am here and if I really want to be. I am slowly losing my desire to push through this all. All the work and money that goes into this, it isn't an easy decision to make about life. I thought I knew what I was getting into. I seem to get to the understanding that life isn't easy, and I know my life is far from tough, but in the corner of my mind I still question.

Not that this life is easy, but I wonder why I am doing this actually. I used to believe that people here cared, and I know that they still do. But on the other hand it seems around here a lot, people try to trick you. To see exactly what you do and do not know is one thing, to try to trick someone over minute details when in the broad stream of what they want you to learn is another. I wish they gave me direction in where to go and what was important. A big part of why tomorrow is happening is because I don't feel I was told. Life is hard right now because I'm not someone used to failure, especially failure when I don't feel my failure is a representation of what I really know. Am I the most knowledgeable person about OMM no I am not, and I recognize that. However I don't think that I know so little as it seems.