First Hurdle

Well baring all the scores changing and me doing worse than I have in the past I pasted the first hurdle of this semester of medical school. I got exactly average apparently 88 out of 108 questions. Somehow I have given up trying to excel in the classes. But I hope that I at least get average more or less. Ever since I've been married, it seems a whole lot more intense and bearing. I feel like I have to get better scores and do more since now it's not just myself I am going to school for, but rather Kristen is depending more on me. That sucks.
Got a call from Sarah today, or rather I called her twice and she finally picked up so I am stockpiling Sobe Adrenalins for my dad for father's day apparently.
Maybe I should start looking at cruise liner costs now that the liner crashed this last weekend. A horrible tragedy, but if it makes cruises more affordable maybe something good comes out of bad things.
I am at a lost of what to do today... I have all this time but none of the video games I currently have aren't too appealing, what to do, what to do. It would help if we have something at our house, but we don't, we have basically a bare house. I guess I'll put pictures up when I find a website to post pictures. I've gotten tired putting everything on facebook. Until then don't worry, I have the pictures of the house on my computer saved so just need time. I might do that when I get home in a few minutes.
Well it's a relief that the test is over, hope everything is good out there
ZAC

Back to School

For the few of you who so avidly looked forward to my infrequent writings, I must apologize since the new wife, cruise, and driving back up to Oregon has sapped away my time to do really anything.
Yesterday I was driving in the heart of northern California forests and trying not to fall asleep or hit a deer. The next day I am back in school wishing I had more time to sleep. I didn't sleep enough this vacation, dang schedule lol. I was waking up on the cruise at around 7-730 every day,which is totally unacceptable in my opinion. So I wish I had all the time in the world to write something nice to say,and explain everything to you all, or you 2-3. But I don't, I am actually writing in the middle of class so I can listen and not fall asleep in class(since they are here in Lebanon today). But I wish I could not pay so much attention and give you guys all the juice details about the last 3 weeks of my life, but you'll just have to actually get in touch with me in real life to hear about anything cool.
What else could I say to wet your whistle? I have no clue, although the cruise was amazing. If any one wants to go on a cruise with us, just let us know.
Till next time

Real Life after Marriage

Well, one day out of a lot in, and it has turned out to be nothing like I thought it was going to be. Although let's be honest, the sex is great. We basically spent the day just like everyone else. We got up, afterwards we went to her parent's house to open gifts and basically do nothing for the late morning early afternoon. After we took a short nap, we went to go play football in Alvin. Because that is exactly what Kristen wants to do on the day after we get married, I played flag football! After football we went to eat dinner with my family and look at a variety of different photos from Thanksgiving and our wedding/reception.
Things must be looking pretty grim for Kristen these days. Welcome to married life.

Home for the holidays.

Final Push

Well we're almost done with 1/8 of my school and it's gone by so fast. The good and the bad. I have 3 hours of lecture left, 3 days of studying, and 1 boss of a final. Then I'll be free for the next 2 weeks! I'll be able to go to Texas, relax, marry the woman I love, and let's face it, I'll get to have sex! Now I know that's the naughty "s" word but hey it's 2 weeks before my marriage I can talk about that. But unfortunately that's not the topic of tonight's blog(although you guys who do read this should stay tuned, that one should be a good on!).

It's hard to imagine that 4 months have already come and gone. I've gone through so much material it's crazy what they force into your brain in medical school. What's even crazier is how much your brain can fit!

The funny thing is I know I only need a mid-high 50s to pass the test, so on one hand I am not worried about it, but on the other hand, I am worried because of all the MCBM tests, this one is the most biochemistry of all. I just want to get through medical in one piece, get a residency I can live with, finish up all my COMLEX tests with passing grades and have a nice life with Kristen. Is that too much to ask? I think not

One day, just need to keep trucking, praying, studying, and seducing Kristen and everything will turn out okay

Randomness

As I sit here wasting time I was wondering if ppl read these or not, well besides Kristen because she's obsessed with me.

Anyway as the last of the weeks wind down for my first semester I am getting more and more fried lol. Of course, but at least it is only one class really left. My basic science class and that is going to end in just over a week. That feels good just saying that, in fact I think I said that out loud just now. 12.5% DONE!

Anywho

My life isn't up to much these days really, in fact I live at the school as usual, going home whenever I need to sleep. I will be glad to be closer to the school, I might be able to walk home from school when I live on Academy, sure save on gas, but then, my routine stop by McDonalds for a McChicken and fries will fall by the wayside... sad

Anyway as you can see I don't have much to say unless you want to hear about phosphorylase kinase or glycogen syntase... probably not

Ok

Paths

As I get ready for tomorrow I think about where my life has come from and what I am doing. I notice that lots of times I take everything for granted, and wonder where should I really be. As I go in front of a committee tomorrow to present my case I start to question why I am here and if I really want to be. I am slowly losing my desire to push through this all. All the work and money that goes into this, it isn't an easy decision to make about life. I thought I knew what I was getting into. I seem to get to the understanding that life isn't easy, and I know my life is far from tough, but in the corner of my mind I still question.

Not that this life is easy, but I wonder why I am doing this actually. I used to believe that people here cared, and I know that they still do. But on the other hand it seems around here a lot, people try to trick you. To see exactly what you do and do not know is one thing, to try to trick someone over minute details when in the broad stream of what they want you to learn is another. I wish they gave me direction in where to go and what was important. A big part of why tomorrow is happening is because I don't feel I was told. Life is hard right now because I'm not someone used to failure, especially failure when I don't feel my failure is a representation of what I really know. Am I the most knowledgeable person about OMM no I am not, and I recognize that. However I don't think that I know so little as it seems.